This week I heard a song that kiiind of changed my life.
It’s called “Living my Best Life” by Ben Rector and it SPOKE to me, my friends.
Something I’ve been struggling with recently is just… time. And any mom out there in the toddler stage will immediately understand what I’m saying within that one word, but let me get into more detail. When I had Ryder almost 3 years ago (nuts), the hardest thing for me to adjust to wasn’t the sleepless nights, the feeds, the diaper changes, or even the shorter work week (which I’m now obsessed with). It was my free time being cut down to maybe 10% of what it used to be.
I’ve been asking myself why I’ve struggled with this so much. I’m not doing anything crazy during those 2ish hours post-bedtime that I have to myself (I am watching Vanderpump Rules which is insanity, but that’s for another email). Most of the time I put Ryder down to bed and then lay on the coach (or flat on the floor) and just relish in the fact that I don’t have to move anymore (iykyk). I think to myself – “If only I could have a couple days alone with nothing to do!!”
But I have to be careful what I wish for. When I lived in NYC with two roommates who were always gone, I DREADED the weekends because of how much time there was to fill. I felt really lonely, even when surrounded by so many people. Right now, I’m dreaming of an uninterrupted weekend to myself, but that’s just not the season of life I’m in.
Cue the Ben Rector lyric about growing up, having a family, and not being on the road with his band as often anymore:
”Sometimes it sucks to tell the truth
And I took it hard like people do
But I’m learning how to eat the fruit that is in season.”
I am currently learning how to eat the fruit that is in season. There’s a reason why we don’t eat watermelon in the winter. There’s also a reason that parents of extremely energetic two year olds don’t go on lavish getaways or lounge around in their homes alone relaxing.
Parenthood will break you down in ways you never anticipated, but build you up again in new, beautiful, and better ways you didn’t think was possible. I am 100% becoming a better human being by not getting what I think I want all the time, and instead aligning my expectations and energy with a season of life that’s truly a gift from God.
I’m sure everyone has that “eating non-seasonal fruit” desire – whether that’s in a wintery season of creative work, wishing away your single season waiting for the right person to come along, or when your business isn’t giving you the results you want. My challenge to you: can you find (and enjoy) fruit that IS in season right now?